93 ’til infinity

I’ve been hesitant for a while whether to write about Alex on my blog, for fear of appearing selfish or upsetting people – but I think I’m just completely overthinking in my mind as per. His passing has affected too many people, and I want to talk about my friend as the wonderful man he…

I’m Tired

and I won’t let go. I have to give credit to The “I’m Tired” Project for this idea, I’ve kind of taken their principle and making it personal to me. I’m tired of being selfless. For years I have drilled it into myself that I’m a selfish person, or perhaps it’s the people I surrounded myself…

Are you happy?

One day I will settle. I will settle in one town, one house.. or perhaps I won’t.  Two days ago I moved from the wretched Bristol to a village in Taunton. If people have read my past blog posts, they’ll maybe have an idea of the shitty situation I have been in for a few…

If I die tomorrow

Life is odd really isn’t it? You’re born, you live for however long and you die. That’s it, you’re gone. I am a believer of an after life but I’m not sure I’d be able to finish a bucket list as a spirit – just doesn’t quite have the same effect does it? I’ve never really thought…

The Fault in our System

I’ve always taken pride at how well I’ve coped with my depression and anxiety. I’m not sure if this was because I was a teenager and found it easier to pull the “I’m a teenager, I don’t want to socialise with family” mood, meaning I could lie and get out situations I was not comfortable…

Being Human

  Visiting the doctors is part of my routine these days, constant phone calls to grab appointments on the day, numerous shitty doctors and the gut wrenching feeling when I leave the room, knowing I haven’t told them everything, or they haven’t given me the help I was so desperately reaching out for. Now what?…

Don’t expect much

Opening up a blog like this is all new and a bit daunting. Bear with me. A lot is going on in my life at the minute, no actually, for the past few years. But particularly right now. I’ve been in similar situations before but for me this time in my life is particularly hard….